The words below are from a song by
Robert Murray McCheyne titled “I Am Debtor.” The song is the fifth of fourteen “Songs of Zion to cheer and guide pilgrims on their way to the heavenly Jerusalem.”
“I Am Debtor”
When this passing world is done,
When has sunk yon glaring sun,
When we stand with Christ in glory,
Looking o’er life’s finished story,
Then, Lord, shall I fully know—
Not till then—how much I owe.
When I hear the wicked call
On the rocks and hills to fall,
When I see them start and shrink
On the fiery deluge brink,
Then, Lord, shall I fully know—
Not till then—how much I owe.
When I stand before the throne
Dressed in beauty not my own,
When I see thee as thou art,
Love thee with unsinning heart,
Then, Lord, shall I fully know—
Not till then—how much I owe.
When the praise of heaven I hear,
Loud as thunders to the ear,
Loud as many waters’ noise,
Sweet as harp’s melodious voice,
Then, Lord, shall I fully know—
Not till then—how much I owe.
Even on earth, as through a glass
Darkly, let thy glory pass,
Make forgiveness feel so sweet,
Make thy Spirit’s help so meet,
Even on earth, Lord, make me know
Something of how much I owe.
Chosen not for good in me,
Wakened up from wrath to flee,
Hidden in the Saviour’s side,
By the Spirit sanctified,
Teach me, Lord,on earth to show,
By my love, how much I owe.
Oft I walk beneath the cloud,
Dark as midnight’s gloomy shroud;
But, when fear is at the height,
Jesus comes, and all is light;
Blessed Jesus! bid me show
Doubting saints how much I owe.
When in flowery paths I tread,
Oft by sin I’m captive led;
Oft I fall—but still arise—
The Spirit comes—the tempter flies;
Blessed Spirit! bid me show
Weary sinners all I owe.
Oft the nights of sorrow reign—
Weeping, sickness, sighing, pain;
But a night thine anger burns—
Morning comes and joy returns;
God of comforts! bid me show
To thy poor, how much I owe.
May, 1837.
The words may be found in one of the following two sources:
1. McCheyne, R. M. (1848).
The Works of the Late Rev. Robert Murray McCheyne, Vol. 1 (360–361). New York: Robert Carter.
2. McCheyne, R. M., & Bonar, A. A. (1894).
Memoir and Remains of the Rev. Robert Murray McCheyne (579–580). Edinburgh; London: Oliphant Anderson & Ferrier.
For a short biographical introduction of R.M. McCheyne, read, watch or listen to John Piper's meditations on McCheyne's life titled "
He Kissed the Rose and Felt the Thorn: Living and Dying in the Morning of Life." To get better acquainted with McCheyne, get Bonar's "
Memoir and Remains" (
Logos edition) or McCheyne's
works.